Ben Roethlisberger had a towel wrapped around his head to protect himself from the Colorado sunshine. He was staring at the foothills outside Fort Collins, smiling on one of the many of his fine football afternoons.
“What a great place,” Roethlisberger said. “I like it here.”
It was Sept. 20, 2003, and Big Ben had just led his Miami of Ohio teammates to a rout over Colorado State. Roethlisberger had delivered such spectacular football theater that even Rams fans had to appreciate this quarterback who was big enough to play the line.
Fans, over and over, complimented Roethlisberger, who was unfailingly polite. He gave credit to Jesus. He was impressively, if blandly, polite and modest.
I was thinking about that happy afternoon when NFL commissioner Roger Goodell announced he was suspending Roethlisberger for six games. Roethlisberger deserved the penalty from the NFL – and a jail sentence from Georgia authorities – after a disgusting sexual incident with a 20-year-old college student.
Roethlisberger is from a deeply religious family. I met his father in Fort Collins, and the elder Roethlisberger also talked freely and frequently about giving all credit to Jesus. The Roethlisbergers obviously had been reading their Bibles.
Big Ben must know the story of Samson, and he also must know how much his current plight resembles the fall of Samson, one of the most fascinating villains of the Old Testament.
Like Samson, Roethlisberger has been blessed with everything imaginable. And, also like Samson, Roethlisberger seems determined to throw away every one of those blessings.
Samson ended his life blinded and defeated by his enemies. His inability to tame himself led to his spectacular demise. It was a tragic, agonizing ending to a story that had so much promise. Samson, mighty Samson, could not defeat himself.
Roethlisberger has conquered every opponent on the football field.
During his months of humiliation and exile, we’ll see if he can conquer the personal demons that dragged him so very low.